Wednesday, December 28, 2005

Would You Care For a Spot of Tea?

So an invite to spend the Fall 2006 semester studying abroad at Oxford arrived today in the mail for me. It's a huge honor and only those who have been personally invited are allowed to apply, unfortunately I'm about 18k shy of being able to afford it and I'd have to leave for the program four days after our wedding. So what do you all think? Anyone want to chip in for the 18k as a wedding gift? Ha! :)

No? Oh well, that's ok! I could never spend four months away from Sean and our furry kids. I barely survived 8 days even with constant phone communication. So 120 days with limited access to email or phone time and I'd definitely have severe Burger-Butt, Baden Pup and Tigger Kitty withdrawals. Besides, I so don't think I could pull off the whole English accent thing.

Tuesday, December 27, 2005

Eight Ball Says...Outlook Not So Good!

So I survived my instruction duties at a training conference in Reno for work fairly unscathed. No one blasted me on the critique sheets or said what the hell is that "kid" whose half our age and without any military experience doing up there trying to teach us how to balance the Army's budget. As this thought had crossed my mind once or twice as I made my way through the smoke-filled casino. There's nothing like a week of listening to slot machines clink, clank and jingle. It's seriously enough to drive a person insane. Luckily my friends, I'm already on the verge of insanity.

Not shockingly most of the stress, frustration and outrage that I encountered during my travels were derived from a family member who has lost her frickin mind and chose to revert to tantrum-like behavior that would only be acceptable in a small child. I may get into that on here later...not sure though because that saga is ongoing. But the upside, hey maybe we'll have a few less mouths to feed at the wedding. Really, who needs family at their wedding? Hopefully, not me because as it's looking right now there will only be one relative- my sister. That could change, not sure if I want it to or not though. Decisions have to be made and some asses need to be kicked. I'm still deciding just how far I want to dig my heels in and if this is the appropriate time and situation in which to do so. We'll see. I know, I'm being cryptic. It's not intentional, but I'm not sure if this family member reads this. More importantly, I'm still mentally/emotionally trying to process all this shit, because basically that's what it is, and determine the best way to respond. I'm sure there will be a vent fest or two in the near future.

I was thinking of taking a step back from the blog thing for a bit and am still contemplating it, but haven't made any decisions yet. We'll see. If I have something to say, I'll keep doing it. If not, then I'll take a hiatus and just enjoy traveling through the blogosphere reading other's blogs and witty stories. I've met some great people through blogging and definitely intend to keep up-to-date with the happenings in their lives and will continue to enjoy their rantings and fabulous funny adventures. Right now, I'm just not sure how much sass or humor I have left in me. And there's only so much ranting and bitching you can do about family before you begin to bore yourself. So we'll see...not sure yet what the future holds. Hope every had a great Christmas!

Saturday, December 10, 2005

Look Out World's Biggest Smallest City

It's 4:18am, on a Saturday, isn't it illegal to be up this early? Let me clarify- it's not by choice. I board a plane today to go back west. The upside, I get to see my wonderful big sis.... Oh yeah, I get to see the rest of my family or at least the ones who didn't go out of town although they knew full well I was coming in today. Nice, huh? Par for the course.... Anyways. The downside...I have to spend the week at a conference, where I have to be an obstructer to a less than friendly crowd, speaking about a program which I know pretty well, but this crowd given that they all come from a similar work background, which I don't...well they always seem to ping me with the questions, that unless you've been there done that, you just wouldn't know. So yeah, they'll probably throw eggs at me as they call me little lady and sweetheart. Anyone want to change places??

I know I've sucked at this blog thing ya'll....but hey writing a post, this early!, that's gotta make you feel a little loved. I won't get back home until the 18th. Speaking of...have I mentioned yet how much I'm going to miss my Seanie, Baden Pup and Tigger Kitty. No furry kisses or stinky wet licks (from the animals of course). Damn it, Baden just came downstairs- I thought to hang out with me- nope the punk stole the rest of my English muffin. Eh....too tired to fight him for it. :) Seanie...I love you honey and I'm going to miss you so much while I'm away. The ache and that feeling like you're just not quite whole, won't subside until I'm back here with you and the "kids". I know most of you may think it's silly that I'm all sappy about 8 days away, but well too bad. Ha! Seriously, I spent most of my life not knowing what the sane, non-dysfuntional meaning of family was. Sean and his wonderful family have given me that and so much more. So now that I finally have a family that brings smile rather than tears, happy rather than horrified laughter and support rather than criticism, I finally have a home that I love being in and coming back to every day. It's all that ever hoped for and feared I'd never have. I thank God every day Sean for bringing you in to my life and thank you for being my rock, my sanity and the housekeeper/Starbucks errand boy the last few weeks. I appreciate it and I appreciate you.

All right ya'll I'm running at ya when I get back. Don't let me forget to tell you the story about how our vet laughed at Sean's "Huh?!?". Hehe.

Thanks for bearing with me through all the madness of the past few weeks. I survived and finished final on really. Thanks to a freak snow storm that almost caused me an incomplete in the course.